Disclaimer: Before you read this post...it is kind of a debby downer post...so read at your own risk...
It seems as though my life is always going to have some sort of struggle. Now it seems to be my job. I feel like I get emotionally beat up on a daily basis. All I keep remembering is that verse that says, "Be content in all circumstances". I struggle so much with that. I know life is hard, but there has to be more to this life than what I am seeing. Don't get me wrong, I am so glad to have a job, I just don't feel like I have found my nitch yet.
I have also been feeling lonely and feeling like the Lord is showing me that I need to weave out certain relationships in my life. Sometimes I feel ok with it, and other times I feel so alone. Sometimes I even feel a little annoyed and angry with the relationships. I will be honest, I feel like an emotional rollercoaster lately. And in lately, I mean the past 8 to 10 years. Do you ever see people that you just think, hmm... they have it all going for them? Well, I do.
So, on a more positive note...I have made it a goal (3 days ago) to make Jesus my everything, so in order for that to happen, I have to get into His word daily. I want to fall in love with Jesus. SO, maybe that is why He is showing me who I need to weed out of my life because it isn't good for me. I realize this is going to be a process but I am hopeful that I will fall madly in love with our Savior.