Saturday, May 15, 2010

Pray with Me

I desperately desire to be a better christian.  I have been doing a very lousy job for several months now.  I am struggling with just picking up the bible and reading it and even worse, I am struggling to pray.  So, I ask my friends to pray with me.  Pray that I will get that fire back.  I have been a very bad example to many friends and people I don't even know.  I get so weary in waiting to see what the Lord has in store for me.  I seem to fall into a pit when something goes wrong in my life.  I DON'T want to do that any more!  I also don't want to be tested and have any more pain.  But, that is not the way life is supposed to be.  God never said the christian life will be easy. 

This verse was sent to me via my daily email and it is so great!  "As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother's womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the Maker of all things."  Ecclesiastes 11:5  I need to moment by moment remember this promise from the Lord.  I WILL NOT understand His ways, but I just have to believe that He will show me in His time.

Thanks for praying with me!  Have a good weekend.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

When does life start to make a little bit of sense....

The question I am asking today is one that I am pretty sure a lot of people would like to know the answer too.  Unfortunately, I don't think life will ever make complete sense.

I have been having some thoughts lately about friendships.  I desire a best friend, I have my whole life.  I have been so blessed by some very wonderful friendships, but I still feel like something is missing.  I can get really close with someone and then something happens and the trust is broken or it just feels like that season of the friendship is over.  I have been wondering recently how I can be a better friend and still remain Jill.  What am I doing wrong to prevent that best friendship from happening?  Maybe nothing, or maybe something.  I would like to say I have been praying about it, but honestly I haven't.  Hmmmm....maybe that is my problem.  :)  I think a lot of times I feel mis-understood or I seem to stay in the same stinking place in my life while my friends lives go in many different directions and their seasons change constantly!  I know that the Lord desires me to to be completely fulfilled in Him and I have not done so well with that.  But, I also know that he created us for relationships.  Maybe my standards are too high for people and then I feel let down...So many questions I have and so little answers. :)  I will definitely being praying about this. 

I also desire a relationship with the Lord and I desire to be Christ like, and I find myself failing at this daily, especially at my work place...I definitely need to get plugged in with some christian women and get some accountability.  I do so much better in my life when I have positive christian influence in my life!

Be still, still.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

8 Dresses...

Do you think I could have a movie based on 8 bridesmaid dresses?  ha ha ha!  I am beginning to think that I could open a resale shop of bridesmaid dresses!  Yes, it is true.  I have been a bridesmaid 8 times.  2 just this year alone.  Though I am so grateful and honored to be in so many weddings, I am ready for a break of them for a while.  I have just recently decided that maybe my childhood dream will change a bit.  I have always wanted a after being in 8, I am thinking that eloping and spending the money on a very nice honeymoon sounds A LOT more appealing to me.  The good news is, I don't have to worry about that right now!  :)  All in God's timing, I know!  I would take a picture of all of them...but to be honest I think I finally threw some of the oldies from the 90's in the trash. :)

Life has been interesting the past few months.  Good, but interesting.  I have had some minor drama, but luckily the Lord has opened my eyes to see A LOT!  And I am so grateful for the things that He has opened my eyes to see.  Thank you, Lord for your grace and your wisdom!

Here are a few pictures of my favorite things!