Thursday, March 17, 2011


Today I'm lonely, tired of being alone, tired of being single. I know Jeremiah 29:11, but I'm ready to see what You are holding out for me. My heart aches and longs to love the man that You have for me.

Why do I have to wait? When will You make me at peace with this? Why does my heart long and ache for my mate if I am not to be married?

Just lots of questions today. I see ALL around me people having what I so deeply desire. Some so grateful and some so ungrateful. Some living out their hearts desire.

Be still...Jill

In His time...

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Feelings, Emotions, Thoughts

Do you ever think too much? Do you ever get overly sensitive? I do! I drive myself nuts sometimes worrying about why people act the way they do. I'm always so certain I've done something to make them in a bad mood. Well, that can't be right...again this is another place the stupid devil attacks me! He really tries to put negative worrisome thoughts in my head constantly, but I am wising up and not letting his stupid schemes defeat me any more!

Don't get me wrong, I still struggle! Obviously today I failed, but praise Jesus for His love and mercy! His mercies are new EVERY morning!

Thank you, Jesus for your truly unfailing love!

Romans 15:13 need to ring in my mind;
"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit."

Lord, help me to overflow with Your joyful and steady loving spirit!

Jill 

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Trust & Believe = Faith?

I have really been pondering a lot lately about relationships. Not just men relationships, but friend relationships. I kinda had a revelation the other day. I seem to always struggle with friendships, things will go well and then suddenly things go wrong. I thrive on friendships and when I feel like I don't have a so called "best friend", I become lonely, sometimes extremely lonely. So, I have realized why I am so called different in this...I am single. I do not have a husband, my best friend yet, so I am more "needy" in the friend dept. :).

Now do not get me wrong here, Jesus is to be our ALL IN ALL, I get that! But, I also need visible, vocal friends too.

I have become friends with someone I didn't think I could be friends with because my heart was so hurt, but in being half way friends with this person, I also have to be careful that I do not read into it more than I should. This friend is my ex bf. I don't date, rarely ever, so it's really easy for me to always wonder in the back of my mind if something is supposed to be there one day down the road. I know for certain now is not right, it may never be right. I just have to trust, then believe that God WILL bring me my prince, my champion when HIS timing is right, and that for me = FAITH!

Some times waiting and having faith is sooo hard! But, I praise JESUS for HIS protection over me for the past 32 yrs!

Jill 