The question I am asking today is one that I am pretty sure a lot of people would like to know the answer too. Unfortunately, I don't think life will ever make complete sense.
I have been having some thoughts lately about friendships. I desire a best friend, I have my whole life. I have been so blessed by some very wonderful friendships, but I still feel like something is missing. I can get really close with someone and then something happens and the trust is broken or it just feels like that season of the friendship is over. I have been wondering recently how I can be a better friend and still remain Jill. What am I doing wrong to prevent that best friendship from happening? Maybe nothing, or maybe something. I would like to say I have been praying about it, but honestly I haven't. Hmmmm....maybe that is my problem. :) I think a lot of times I feel mis-understood or I seem to stay in the same stinking place in my life while my friends lives go in many different directions and their seasons change constantly! I know that the Lord desires me to to be completely fulfilled in Him and I have not done so well with that. But, I also know that he created us for relationships. Maybe my standards are too high for people and then I feel let down...So many questions I have and so little answers. :) I will definitely being praying about this.
I also desire a relationship with the Lord and I desire to be Christ like, and I find myself failing at this daily, especially at my work place...I definitely need to get plugged in with some christian women and get some accountability. I do so much better in my life when I have positive christian influence in my life!
Be still, Jill....be still.