Wednesday, August 11, 2010


Accepted: generally approved; usually regarded as normal, right, etc.  This is the definition according to  Why do we long to be accepted so badly by the things and people of this world?  I have really been thinking and pondering on this a lot lately, especially since I have had so many people make comments about my body and suggesting different things I can do to lose weight.  I feel like I want to be accepted because if I am not, then there is obviously something wrong with me.  I mean I am 31 and single...these are the kind of thoughts that the enemy puts in to my mind!  I feel so unaccepted by so many "friends" sometimes.  That is why I have to find my true identity and self in Christ Jesus.  No person, not a friend or a man will ever make me or anyone else feel complete and accepted EVER!  The only person who will accept us for who we are is Jesus!  This has also made me more aware of how I look at other people around me too and it is quite the eye opener.

I could go on for a long time trying to explain myself and why it is harder for me to lose weight but, I am not going to do that any more.  I feel like maybe the Lord keeps me in a place of "discontentment" so to speak to make me desire more and more to be with Him in heaven one day.  :)  Brings me back to the wonderful song by Bethany Dillon: 

I was so unique

Now I feel skin deep

I count on the make-up to cover it all

Crying myself to sleep cause I cannot keep their attention

I thought I could be strong

But it's killing me

Does someone hear my cry?

I'm dying for new life


I want to be beautiful

Make you stand in awe

Look inside my heart,

and be amazed

I want to hear you say

Who I am is quite enough

Just want to be worthy of love

And beautiful

Sometimes I wish I was someone other than me

Fighting to make the mirror happy

Trying to find whatever is missing

Won't you help me back to glory


You make me beautiful

You make me stand in awe

You step inside my heart, and I am amazed

I love to hear You say

Who I am is quite enough

You make me worthy of love and beautiful
Lord, I truly want to be beautiful in Your eyes.  Help me to keep my focus steadfast on you! 
I hope whoever reads this, feels beautiful today!


  1. I'm sorry you've been having such a bad time Jill. :( People can be too harsh and out of line without even realizing it. I happen to think you are beautiful just the way you are! I was a WAY late bloomer in high school (and even then I think I only bloomed halfway ha) and so I tend to always think curvier women are more beautiful than skinny women. Don't let other people get you down. Here is a quote I got in the Fellowship Women's e-mail yesterday that might encourage you.

    "Just think, you're here not by chance, but by God's choosing. His hand formed you and made you the person you are. He compares you to no one else... You are one of a kind. You lack nothing that His grace can't give you. He has allowed you to be here at this time in history to fulfill His special purpose FOR THIS GENERATION."

    Love you Jill!!

  2. How awful of them- you are so beautiful! People are so unhappy with themselves they try to drag others down with them.
    I have something that I repeat every day: "I am learning to be ME and not apologize for it anymore...."
    You are more than welcome to share it! :0)
    I am also learning about real friends. I used to be so depressed I thought that bad friends were better than no friends. How lonely I was. Now I know that my true happiness is in the LORD and my family and friends that DO care about me- just as you said. You are so strong girl! Keep up the good work!