Baby it's cold outside!

BRRR!  It is so cold outside.  This is not my favorite time of the year.  I prefer spring and fall, especially fall!  This is the season for my birthday and it is always so dang cold in January and February!  I guess it could be worse! :)

I will be 32 in less than a month...WOW!  That kinda freaks me out and it also makes me wonder what my new year will bring.  That's when the verse, "do not be anxious for anything, but with prayer and petition offer your requests to the Lord"...so...I am going to do my best not to be anxious or worry about tomorrow!  Some days I am good at that, some days I am not.

So glad it's Friday! So ready to have sickness GONE!

Have a great weekend!

YUM!

I enjoy eating out, but I really really do like to eat at home too! Here is one of my favorite quick yummy dinners:

God Speaks...

Wow, I picked up my devotional by Joyce Meyer this morning, "Battlefield of the Mind" and the Lord totally spoke to me. Especially with the relationship troubles I've been having. "Think About What You Are Thinking About" and the verse that goes with it is Philippians 4:8a Whatever is true, whatever is worthy of reverence and is honorable and seemly, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely and lovable, whatever is kind and winsome and gracious, if there is any virtue and excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think on and weigh and take account of these things [fix your mind on these things].

This has been such a great devotional for me, because my mind runs wild and goes so many places it shouldn't. I can't blame my unhappiness on anyone! I cant! The enemy knows were to attack me and my thoughts is a huge place. I have to make it a priority to review the way I am thinking! "Satan deceives us into thinking that the source of our misery or pain is other people or sometimes our situations. He tries not to let us face the fact that our own thoughts are the source of our unhappiness".

My goal: seek the Lords help to keep my mind and thoughts fixed on Him! And to find my joy and completion in Jesus!

Jill :)

Learning How the Lord keeps Providing, But Still Confused...

Well another year has come and gone, it's kind of weird in a sense and then again not. I always wonder what the new year will bring, every year I have "oh I wonder if this will happen" and "what if this or that". I would really like to let go of that concept in my mind, but unfortunately it is still in the center of my mind. Hmmm....I used to be a dreamer, now I feel like I am just a realist and a dream downer. I really wish I didn't lose the dreamer part of me. Maybe if I seek the Lord on that, He will help me get it back. It just seems all the things I had dreamt of and hoped for as a little girl are different and haven't happened...yet.

A continual heart ache for me is relationships, not just guy relationships, but girl friend relationships. I tend to get really close to some girls and the friendship is so fun for a while and then something always changes. I have learned something about myself, well actually a few things, I have learned that when I care about someone, it is 100% and I would do anything for them. But, there comes a point where if you are the only one putting forth most of the effort, maybe it's time to let it go. These words "letting go" are such heart wrenching words to me. I hate to admit it, but I wear my heart and my feelings on my sleeve. A blatant sign for me is calls not being returned, texts going unanswered, and only getting called when it's convenient for the other party. These are all signs of rejection
to me. Every person has there own form of rejection, but I am a person who thrives on words
of affirmation and actions, so when those things are hurtful or non existent, that's where
I have to let it go. My mom used to tell me if you have 1 true friend in this life you are lucky. I am learning there is so much truth in that the older I get. We were made for relationships and I thrive on having close friends, I'm just going to have to trust in the Lord with this one.

I hope to be married to the man that God created just for me one day, and even then I will still deeply desire girl friends!

Happy 2011 












the hurt sets in. I started thinking maybe I was too needy, but I don't believe that, I believe the enem

Jill :)