I had the most wonderful thing happen to me this weekend...I will get to it in a minute, but I want to talk about some other things first. Do any of you struggle to try to make people like you? Or are there certain people in your life that you just want to like you so much, but you feel like you just don't have what it takes? I do! :) Please don't get me wrong, I am a very blessed person in the aspect that God has blessed me with many people who like me. We will call them aquaintances. And then you have the people who truly want to know what is going on with you and when you tell them, even after feeling like you have been in a pit for the past billion years, they still care for you and want to know how you really feel, and they still want to be friends with you. I call these friends! I don't want to be one of those people who wear people out with my problems. I really don't! I just know that one day, I am going to be able to be there for others and I actually hopefully won't be in a state of issues... We will see. I guess even if I am still having issues, hopefully I will be able to return the favor.
Speaking of 'pit', I have been in one. God has allowed me and my friend Amy to reconnect with one another and our friendship has really just blossomed. We went to dinner on Saturday night, just the two of us and it was so nice! I can honestly say, I have never seen this side of her before. She has always made me laugh and she is very funny and super nice and fun! We just haven't really had a moment like we did. So, she goes on to tell me that she had just really been praying for me and she asked God to reveal to her just exactly it was that I have been feeling! Ok, first of all! WHO DOES THAT! I was so humbled by her love and desire to relate to me in my pain. She said that while they were at church, the Lord completely revealed to her just exactly it was that I have been feeling and going through. She told me and honestly, it was exactly what I have been feeling that no one else seems to get or understand. I think at this point, people are probably like, Jill, seriously...get over it! Well, I am not like those people. So, she reccomended a great book to me. It is actually one that I have seen over and over, just never picked it up to read it. It is this:
So far, it is hitting the nail on the head.
Thank you to all of you who read this and love me! You are appreciated beyond words! For those of you who have listened more than your share! THANK YOU!