My room mate told me of a verse that I have heard over and over before, but thanks to Beth Moore, she put it in a whole new perspective... Isaiah 30:31 "But those who wait for the Lord [who expect, look for, and hope in Him] shall change and renew their strength and power; they shall lift their wings and mount up [close to God] as eagles [mount up to the sun]; they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint or become tired." We will grow weary if we are not seeking the Lord and putting our absolute ALL into Him. We tend to put our hope in the things that we so desperately desire! I know that for me right now is to be in a good godly and God ordained marriage. When in all reality, I need to be putting my HOPE IN MY JESUS! I struggle with this over and over. I am really good at believing things for other people, but when it comes to myself, it is like I have zero hope and FAITH! Sometimes I just get tired of praying and I am sure my friends get really tired of me asking them to pray for me. I pray they don't and I pray that the Lord blesses them deeply for there servants hearts in lifting me up when I just either don't want to, or can't. I desire to have faith and I desire to be hopeful that Jesus will give me my heart's desires in His perfect and due time. I really don't want to ruin God's perfect plan for my life. So, even though the waiting stinks A LOT! I would rather wait for the Lord and do it right.
So, I will continue to try to get the faith and hope that I need to honor the Lord and live this life to the fullest. To all I have done wrong and haven't been a great witness...I am so sorry, but I am human and I do make mistakes.
Until next time...I will give you an update on my faith and hope journey. :)
Being a Christian is a daily thing. And boy do I know what you mean about getting tired of being good. It's so hard sometimes. I want you to know you are not alone. We are all waiting on something in our lives. I am waiting on a second child. My friend is waiting for her marriage to be restored. There are women who are waiting for their grown children to come to the Lord. Us ladies have that connection- there is something that we long for and only God can control the outcome. I hope I can build you up and in return you can encourage another sister in Christ, and we can make the loop until all of us are lifted up. Trusting God is so hard. But I do know that HIS timing is perfect. In all things. He does not mess up. I hope this has encouraged you. Love YA!
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